Bella Hadid is going through it lately, and it’s just so sad to see…
On Instagram Thursday, the supermodel got very open and honest about her ongoing struggles with chronic illness. In a candid post to her Stories, she wrote:
“I wish it wasn’t so intimidating and difficult to explain the pain/ exhaustion/fatigue/ anxiety/ brain fog/insecurities that comes with chronic illness/ co infections/mental health/trauma/etc. Leading to severe isolation and depression, especially over long periods of time..especially when you try anything you can. you learn about your symptoms, read books, read others stories, try to self diagnose when you demand answers that no one can find. You fight.”
She continued:
“You finally have a few good days. You think you’ve found the right protocol, the right routine, the right treatment… and then a flare up comes back and all of a sudden nothing feels certain again. Back to cancelling plans, back to the inability to make decisions because you never know what you are going to feel like from day to day. You wake up with anxiety already living in your body. Physical pain before your feet even touch the floor…And somehow, still have to find the strength to move through another day in a body and mind that are completely exhausted. Masking feelings that you can’t even explain. Sometimes it feels like unless you’ve lived something like this, or loved someone who has, it’s impossible
to fully understand.”
So, so sad… Poor Bella.
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In the rest of her post, she opened up about her faith in God to keep her going, and she lended some positive words to others who may be experiencing similar situations:
“I do truly believe that every hardship leaves us with a lesson, a deeper compassion, or a strength we never knew we had. It leads us to the places and people and experience we have now.. I have so much gratitude for life but without living in a body that has more rough days than good… it’s hard to find joy or purpose or reason to even go outside.. but we will keep trying! always! anyways. I just wanted to come on here to say, anyone struggling the way I have, or in ways entirely your own: you are loved. You are needed. Your life has purpose. And you will make it through every season life puts you through… love you and hold you deeply.”
How meaningful. See her full post (below):
In a second post, however, she makes it clear that optimistic spark has been draining. She wrote of her recent “flare ups”:
“Haven’t been able to shake off this flare up…Slept 11 hours. Again…. Nap everyday. Took every protocol from any and every doctor I’ve seen. Still nothing helping. IFYKY. Now I’ve diagnosed myself with 12 other things so that’s good”
She added:
“And today is not the day to tell me to journal. And yes I drank water. And no I didn’t go on a walk because I was out of breath walking to the kitchen(I don’t think there’s a singular brain cell in there working and my last two are beefing with each other so I’m sorry if I ever told you on a bad day to journal I take it back and I’m sorry. I took a shower without fainting tho… so again, if you know you know…that felt like a really big accomplishment for me today so maybe someone can send me a cookie or something”
She’s just seriously struggling! And she sadly has been for such a long time…
In an update post on Friday, though, she expressed that she IS okay and doesn’t want people to worry:
“I’m sorry if I worried anyone. I know it sounds jarring, but in full truth it’s my reality so it’s something I’m able to cope with to a capacity now. I’m sorry if I startled anyone. This is truly an every day, ebb and Flo, for me for the past 15 years. I just had an overwhelming amount of emotion over, not being able to do the things my mind is capable of setting, but my body is not capable of doing.”
It’s so tough to hear, but Bella is SO strong. We’re sending her love and healing amid her health struggles.
[Image via Bella Hadid/Instagram]
